Looking back over 2013, I realize it was a huge year for me. All of my life I had been consumed with fear. I was afraid of everything. My fear prevented me from living life to the fullest. Fear hurt my testimony as a Christian. If my God was so big and was all I claimed He was, why then, did fear rule my life? From the outside I hid it well, but those who really knew me saw it. They experienced it too. My family suffered the most from it, and it even hindered their lives.
In 2013, I decided to stop living this way. I was no longer going to let fear rule my life. It was the most rewarding year so far, and I look forward to more years like it. I made the decision that if my God is who He says He is, that I truly do have nothing to fear. I gave over my fears to Him and I lived life. What are some things I did, you may ask?
In June I took a motorcycle class with my seventeen year old son. He was afraid to ask to try because he thought we wouldn't let him. Again my fears almost prevented us from doing this together. But, I said no to fear and we took the class. I ended up having so much fun, I now own my very own motorcycle. I ride with my husband and son. We have had so many fun adventures together and made some great friends. My next goal is coming up this weekend. I am going to ride to Tortilla Flats in AZ. For those not familiar with this area its a winding road alongside a mountain with some drops along the way.
In Christmas 2012 my husband gave me the gift I've wanted since I was a little girl. My very own horse. I have been riding since I was sixteen but always had fear in me so I never truly let go and just rode. After riding with a very good friend for several months I watched how she rode. Seeing her just let go and ride, I decided to the same. I have had some of the best rides of my life. I have truly felt connected with my horse and become a better rider because of it. My goal this year is to learn to run some barrel patterns and attend a few fun events. I don't want to win a prize. Its about overcoming fears. Not worrying about going fast, or being better than someone else. Its all about getting out there and having fun.
One of the most amazing things I did, this year happened in Sedona, AZ. A few years ago my family took a trip there. My husband drove a jeep, with all of us in it, off road on the trails there. There was one part of the trail that scared me. I actually told my husband not to go down it, but he had to because there was no way to turn around. I cried, laughed in hysterics going down this area. It's called, “the Stairs.” Well, my in-laws came out this year for my husband's birthday and the one thing he wanted to do was take them on this trail. There were too many of us to fit in one jeep so not only did I have to go again, but I would have to drive it. The old me would have said no way. The new me said I will do it, but I have to admit I did it reluctantly. Well, we get out to the trails, and it was amazing. I had the most incredible time. I not only drove all the off road trails, but I also drove down the “stairs”. At the end I put up my arms and let out a scream of happiness. It was the best feeling in the world.
There is nothing that you cannot do. I know that if I can do all this anyone can. My in-laws were so amazed at the different person I was. I can truly say that it isn't me. But my God is so BIG and so amazing that in Him I truly can do anything. I also look at it this way, if anything does happen to me I am not afraid of where I will go. I know my home is in heaven. It may seem a little weird to think like that, but it helps. Life is meant to be lived and experienced. God put so many amazing things on this earth for us to see, to do, and to try. Stop saying you can't do something, and start saying with God there is nothing I can't do. Then start living!
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